I’m At The End Of My Rope

Question: Dear Luise: I lost both of my jobs in 2007. One of the jobs I had been working on since 1994 and my full time job I started in 2002. I also had a miscarriage in 2006 and have been down in the dumps since. I was able to get my dream job in Feb 2008 unfortunately I could not concentrate and was so intimidated that I was let go after 2 months. Finally admitted to myself that I am depressed. Been fighting it since I was a young girl whom lost her mom at 4 yrs old and my grandmother at 11. I also am a single mother who owned a home and I lost that too. I am in counseling and on prozac considering my work history and have enrolled back in college since 2009. Needless to say nothing seems to be working. My 25 yr old son has been kind enough to take in my youngest child who is 17 and he thinks I am such a failure and I am using depression as an excuse. Mind you I watch his children which are 4 and 3 yrs old plus give him 200 a month towards food. I know that is not a whole lot of money but that is all I have. He does not pay me to watch the children. Although I cook breakfast, lunch and dinner and give them their baths. He states I am not trying hard enough. I am at the end of my rope. I am applying but not getting any responses back. I am at my wits end. I have always been responsible and I just do not know what to do anymore? What can I do? F.

Answer: Dear F.: You are doing what I would suggest. You have someone overseeing you medically and are on medication, you are in counseling, you are getting more education and you are looking for work. You deserve so much better and I’m sorry you are so up against it. A break could come at any time…things can change, even family. If you get a chance, try doing some volunteering away from home. You have a lot to give and need to be appreciated to a greater degree. Blessings, Luise

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