By: J.

J. — Wed, 12 Jan 2011 09:15:01 +0000

When I married my Husband i would of never guessed he would be mental, emotional, and verbally cruel. The worst part of that is I Love God, and between Him and I we are really good at seeing through people. Not this time. I was raised by a horrific abusive man, and found myself with people emtionally unavailable, i wouldn’t let them in, once I married a Full Blooded domestic violence perp..my dad and the devil rolled into one. only 1% survive, or get out…i did. My Husband was whom I prayed for one night though dailey commitedd to never re-marrying..i just cried out one night. one week later there he was. a giant handsome powerful man on a white horse who said..”your’re home now..you’re home.” being a Daughter of God i would not let him touch me, and if I was to marry God would let me know. HE did. then i found out later, and still later, then everyday, and now it’s supposed to be funny too all wrapped up in character assassination attempts, put downs, belittleing, i’m stupid, though not told that it’s very appearent he thinks very little that i could survive at all. i’ve enever had anyone, even domestic guy put down my strong traits, talents, and passion. i don’t think there isen’t one thing my husband has not smeared in front of or ofcourse alone about me. tonite he hit me with my singing career. four in a half octives, and a great deal of notability. he said, you’re nothin anymore. nobody knows you now. you’re out of the ccircut, nobody remembers you. …i have been singign since i could walk. people have known me in places i’d never guess. standding ovations was a regular thing, 1st place, always lead…GOD really blessed me. it’s all him. no one ever said that to me. it’s so sacred it’s like a crystal from heaven. when he said that i felt my heart stop beating. tho i realize it’s domanic, and my husband is being used, i was crushed. My only Safe Haven In under the Giant Feathering of Jesus Christ. The only Man who ever Loved me, and treats me like a gentle delicate Rose. He is my Husband, until God delivers My Husband, or whatever God will do. but i know I’m tucked in Grace and Mercy, and it will be him who answer’s before God’s Throne about the Wife, and Family God gave him, less he repents and turns from His ways. As for me, I’m an overcomer through Jesus. I must move on. i wasn’t left to die when i was a smuck, to put it nicely, and now i wont leave my Husband behind because of Jesus. i would of left long ago without him. today, i love not to get it in return, but for the sake of loving. who knew? forgive, forgive, forgive…it’s what i do, and get in his face, i’m an ex street kid with 5 brothers raised by a merciless controlling traditional Irish power junky/coach. i had to be tough, or die. i’m thinking there’s much for me to learn here, and i love my husband, he’s had a lot of pain growing up too. Jesus loved me to Him for Years. I wouldn’t come. then, oneday like20 yrs later i did, i want to give that to my lost hurting husband. to many of us are left to die. I wont let him be left again. I can do all things through Christ Jesus who Strengthens me. that’s the only way i found works. thanks for your time. In Jesus Name, J.

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